Family Portrait

I was told the guy third from the left looks a lot like my Great Uncle Robert. Grandma almost never talked about him but he’s the reason she and her two sisters came north. Slavery may have ended but the conditions in the south got continually worse after the Civil War. By the turn of the century, what had been Plantation Law was now the Law of the Land. There was the Constitution, Jim Crow, and the Black Codes, all separate and not equal.

Whippings, rape and murder were always plantation practices. Now there were no “owners” but the practices and, most importantly, the rules had only slightly changed and not for the better. You weren’t owned but you weren’t free. You sharecropped, barely fed your family and got nowhere. Even if you died, the family was responsible for your debt and debt was just another name for slavery.

Being in prison was worse than being on a plantation. In prison, you were locked in a cage and only allowed out to work. There was no male/female interaction. You worked until you died or they killed you. There are few records on how many men survived a southern prison sentence. Any infraction could get you killed and almost no one cared. You were a criminal with no rights. You labored everyday. It wasn’t slave labor. It was Convict Labor, the new term to cover this new status. Master was now Warden.

So the bits and pieces suggest Great Uncle Bob was arrested as a vagrant even though he worked harder than most. It was Sunday and he was on his way to see how mom and his sisters were getting on now that he worked six days a week in town as a blacksmith’s helper mostly mucking out the town stable. He generally slept in the barn so he’d be there, working, at dawn. He was accosted, by “patrollers”, arrested and sentenced to 6 months hard labor. Three months later great grandma heard he was dead. Upon hearing her hopes and first born were gone with no inkling how he was killed or even if he had been buried she died. She was sure he had been killed. She always felt he was the type of man that would be murdered.

So his sisters knew it was time to leave Maryland. There was nothing to keep the in the south. That was Spring 1900. Two of Great Uncle Robert’s sisters wound up on Long Island and Cornelia, my grandmother, the youngest girl, that could pass if she wanted to, landed in Harlem. A story for another day.

Still Not Ready

Shirley Chisolm

I was going to drive across America to visit my older brother in California next summer but his sudden death this year trashed that plan. I hadn’t seen him since my mother’s funeral many years ago and I was looking forward to the adventure. It would also be a check mark on my bucket list. I had told him I was coming and had started an online file in Trello to plot the trip, but after this presidential year’s election, I can’t fathom why a black guy in a two seat convertable sports car with New York plates would want to drive through all those red states of middle America.

According to the National Missing and Unidentified Persons (NamUS) database, which is funded by the U.S. Department of Justice, more than 600,000 people go missing annually. Approximately 4,400 unidentified bodies are recovered each year. Nationwide, there are roughly 6.5 missing

World Population Review

I don’t want to be an unidentified body in the woods.

Some of you read that and said, “I know that’s right”. Others said, “don’t be so paranoid” and the middle of the road folks said, “you’ve got to live your life”. My answer: Sandra Bland. Remember her. Murdered in Texas in police custody after a traffic stop. What would happen to me on Route 66. I’d like to think a State Trooper or a Good Samaritan would help with a flat tire or a broken belt. I’d like to think they’d even let me sleep in the station or on their couch until the garage opened in the morning without thinking unimaginable thoughts about me, but this is the United States and the country just demonstrated it’s trying hard to get back to the Darkie Ages. You know, when black men being lynched was a common occurance, black women were being raped and black boys and girls were being brutalized, criminalized, undereducated or, or, or . . . I could continue listing injustices but you get it. You know stuff like that still happens everyday and in ways the “Average American” might not consider.*

Include the rash of states that have rolled back abolition rights and re-legislated voting rights. Injustice affects more than people of color.

So we’re still not ready. Kamala Harris got closer than close, being Vice President and, in what seemed to be a sweet spot, running for president of the United States. Who would have believed people would vote for the demonstrated devil they already knew and in such overwhelming numbers.

If all 34 million eligible black voters voted for Harris, she still wouldn’t have won. Black voters comprise about 14% of the voting pool. That means “others” would have had to come out in large numbers for the win. There was large voter turnout, but they cast their votes like dice rather than using it as an educated privilege. I am embarrassed to look most people in the eye when the election comes up realizing that they said the right things but in the closeted space of the voting booth they checked the wrong box with steely conscience they were doing the right thing for America while ignoring the biases, prejudices and projected fears they felt.

Every black man in America has gotten in an elevator and noticed the woman already there shift their pocketbook to the other side. It didnt matter how he was dressed or what building they were in. The circumstances really didn’t matter. It was that subconscious act that they took. So we had an election where most Americans shifted their pocketbooks to the other side, checked their wallets or simply took a step back.

We’re still waiting for America to be what we know it can be. What it promised it might be, understanding that from inception some folks were counted as property, 3/5ths people, and others got no rights at all even though they bore America’s children. The question is not why but know long, how many generations, must pass before truly moral and unbiased folks get elected.

*NOTE: people of color are not Average Americans. Every time anyone uses the term African American, they’re calling attention to what they think people of color are and all the biases and stereotypes that come with the association. Every time we are Black or White we are “qualifying” our status as Americans. CAN’T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG!

Shirley Chisholm Day in New York

Are You With Me

“In the end we will not remember the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.”

Martin Luther King, Jr.
National Association of Colored Women 1946

Murder is murder whether it’s a lynching in Georgia or a choke hold in Minnesota or New York City. At the end of the day, it’s not what side you stand on or the color of your skin but what you said and did. CZV